On November 29, 2009 I wrote about my new adventures as a writer, teacher and graduate student.
I began a new adventure. At 28 I started a new job, began my MFA in Creative Writing and moved into a new apartment.
I had a lot of questions:
What does my life look like as a writer? More specifically, a poet? How can I present myself as a writer to the world?
Apparently, I was also worried a lot about being "normal" or "mainstream" back then.
Poets can't pass as mainstream. Automatically you are thrown into a category where assumptions are made (and some of them are true) and those assumptions may make us unrelateable to mainstream society.
I also had to muster up some courage to even admit to myself that I was an artist:
So here I am, a writer, a poet, an artist of words, of language (yes, I said it) and I'm trying to figure out what that means.
I also really loved watching TV. Good thing that hasn't changed. But what has changed is that I don't feel like shit for wanting to watch TV, because I'm also really committed to writing.
After my boyfriend had to take a job in California, I was left to my own devices the following weekend. I wasted away (not just hours but) days of my week watching television, surfing Facebook and Twitter, sleeping and talking on the phone. I finally had the chance to delve into my writing, yet I found myself avoiding writing at all costs.
I made my boyfriend block websites like Facebook and Hulu. Then I had even more questions!
Many questions came to mind. What was I doing with my life? What did being a writer mean? How should my life change? How should my day be organized? How should my writing and space and home be organized? How does one live like a writer? These questions only spawned more questions.
wrote like a mother fucker:
I've been writing rather prolifically this past week too, beginning a number of new poems and voraciously editing many as well.
Then I decided I needed to a blog to sort through and share my experiences of becoming a writer:
So here is where I will be discovering what it means to live like a writer, a poet, an artist.
Well it's been 506 days and here are the most important things I have learned about living like a writer: fall asleep each night and dream about writing. Wake up everyday thinking about writing.
But, most importantly, write.